I did not wake  up in tears this morning! Should i be happy or sad? A part of me feels like am gradualy trying to except your absence.But the other side is screaming not to forget you.It was at that  same moment that i thought....did you leave anything special to remind me of you?It was not untill i saw my image in the mirrow that it crossed my mind that indeed u left me with the most precious  suvenir that money cant buy and  thats me and my siblings.Soo long as we have life ,you will always live through  us.

I thought i would never smile again.Mom said i would if something was realy funny.But i did today.It felt fantastic like i never smiled before.I talked to someone concerning my feelings.It went well, i felt your presence.School was better today.I think am pulling through it all.I talked to my sister too.It felt so good.I cannot say i am happy now cos i still feel that empty space. Do u think  it will it ever be filled? How about you are u happy where u are?