I thought i would never smile again.Mom said i would if something was realy funny.But i did today.It felt fantastic like i never smiled before.I talked to someone concerning my feelings.It went well, i felt your presence.School was better today.I think am pulling through it all.I talked to my sister too.It felt so good.I cannot say i am happy now cos i still feel that empty space. Do u think  it will it ever be filled? How about you are u happy where u are? 

It all came back to me this morning .Now i know why i am afraid to fall asleep.Because for a moment it feels as if you are still here and you never left.But when the morning comes i am shocked with the reminder that its indeed true.My heart is still broken and i am angry at the world.Why now?why not tomorow.Today is another day and i am trying to move on.Your departure has given me a new view on life.And that every day is indeed preciuos and we should live it to the fullest!But my biggest question  is did you get to do that?